Walking away is not an option... dialogue must prevail.

"A good listener tries to understand what the other person is saying. In the end he may disagree sharply, but because he disagrees, he wants to know exactly what it is he is disagreeing with."
- Kenneth A. Wells

"I do not want the peace that passeth understanding. I want the understanding which bringeth peace."
- Helen Keller
Showing posts with label photography. Show all posts
Showing posts with label photography. Show all posts

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Showing you... me!

It's Saturday!

We find ourselves on the last day of Robert's Show Me Photo Challenge. The "me" edition. I've had a wonderful time with this challenge.

But today, he wants a self-portrait? As much as I think the last few days has been a far better illustration of who I am than a picture of me could be (seriously, who wants to see that!), I figured I'd go for the "bit of me" option he alluded to and tell you the story that accompanies it.

I hate my left knee. I also kinda like it.

I was about 10 (I think...) and we were spending some time with my aunt's family at their cottage by the lake. I loved going there.
My aunt had some bicycles and I decided I wanted to ride one around. The road the cottage as on was a dirt and gravel road and it was a safe place to ride around because people cared about each other and didn't speed. On the other side of the road from the cottage was a farm with a large pasture. They had Holsteins. The road that intersected with the cottage road lead up a hill. I was going to conquer that hill.

We do stupid things when we're ten.

I always wanted to fly. You know, like if someone asks you what super power you'd like to have if you could have your pick? Mine... flying. My most vivid dream is one of me flying off my bed, out my door, down the hall and the stairs and out the front door. I soared over my house and circled my backyard before landing in front of my neighbor so we could play.

So... flying. When you're a kid, there are two ways that make you feel like you're flying: going as high as you can on a swing (sometimes leaping off of it to see how far you can go), and going as fast as you can on a bicycle (usually downhill for maximum speed and wind effect).

Can you see where I'm going?

I get on the bike and head for the hill road. This road has bigger rocks. They're almost the size of the ones you find by a railroad track. It's a bumpy ride uphill but I pump my legs and make it all the way up. From the top of the hill I can see the lake, the row of cottage roofs and the pasture. And the cows can see me.

I turn the bike towards the bottom of the hill and assume the take-off position. It starts off ok. It's bumpy and I wish the seat was a bit softer... and then...

I lose control of the bike.

I flew.

Over the handlebars and down the hill. Landing with a thump in front of a cow that stopped chewing on the tall grass, looked up and me and mooed, mocking me. I was mad, and humiliated and I had small rocks sticking out of my bloodied leg. I told the cow to shut up, I grabbed the bike and walked (limped) down the remainder of the hill towards my aunt's cottage.

I was covered in dirt, with light trails on my cheeks where my tears of rage and humiliation had washed away the road dirt. I stood on the deck facing the door and looked at the handle. I grabbed it and turned it.

I walked in and started to cry.

My aunt rushed to the bathroom and grabbed her first aid kit and a facecloth and ran it under the water. She cleaned me up and bandaged my leg while my mother kept hovering over me trying to figure out what had happened.

I hated that cow. I swear it snarfed and grinned.



I still have the scar. It reminds me that I can get myself in trouble when I don't stop to think... but I know I can pick myself up, clean myself up and go back out there.

I rode the bike again the next day. But I stayed away from the hill, and the cow.


Thank you Robert and my fellow participants in the Challenge. I'm grateful to have met you all. And my thanks to everyone who's taken the time to read any of the posts in this series. SMOOCH!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Showing you... precious time

Today is day 4 in Robert's "Show me" Photography Challenge. He asked us to share something of sentimental value and asked if we would tell everyone a little bit about what makes it so special.

And I knew...




For those of you who didn't know me then, I feel like a bit of backstory is necessary.

My mother died of cancer on January 14th, 2007. She fought so hard. I watched her body wither but I could still see a mischievous twinkle in her eyes until the last days. Endless days that still seemed to have gone by so fast. Never knowing how much time was left. Hoping her pain would be taken from her, but knowing it would also mean she would be taken away from me. I still miss her, some days it's paralyzing.

Mom lived a full life. She loved without reservation, sometimes it felt like too much.... But part of that comes from being an only child.

Mom and Dad would have celebrated their 40th wedding anniversary this past August 31st. So much time, a lifetime.. yet, not quite enough...


I've kept many of her things, but this is one of my favourites and most treasured. Some day, it will be my daughter's...

I posted this poem in September 2006 and so much time has flown by since then...


My Mother's Watch

I wear my mother's watch.

"It's slow" she said, showing me the watch on her wrist.
"I'll get it fixed Mom" I answered.
I took the watch off her thin and fragile arm and put it on mine.

My mother's watch... so beautiful and delicate. White gold and diamonds... fragile yet made of strong metal. Precious stones, hard yet beautiful. The wristband feels so tight...

I wear my mother's watch.

I wish time would slow down. I wish it could stop.
But as I put her watch against my ear, I hear the ticking, regular and even.

When I wear her watch, it keeps time.
I wear my mother's watch.
I wait and count the minutes... the hours...
I wait.
I wear my mother's watch..




Robert, thank you again for the opportunity to share this memory with you.

And to you, dear reader, don't forget to visit Robert and all the other wonderful participants in the "Show Me" challenge... and thank you for taking the time to read, look and listen.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Showing you - my front door... again

If you've visited this blog in the last two days (if not, where's your tardy slip?) you're aware that Robert over at Thoughts of a Father is hosting a photography challenge all this week. He's asking us to show him something different everyday... so far, we've shared our mailboxes and some kitchen shots.

Today he wants to see our front door... (maybe he's a Master lock-pick... and he's doing research! Hmmmm...)

I wondered what I was going to do with this one since my mailbox/slot/deposit thingy is actually a part of my front door. So, what else is there to show you?

Come on closer, you don't have to hide in the bushes... No seriously, stop that! It's freaking me out! Besides, you'll smoosh the vegetation.



Something else about my front door... I keep doing this all the time. I open the door, dogs are jumping up and down in glee and barking what I could swear is the chorus to "Who let the dogs out", and I rush to get the leashes on so my babies can go water the lawn. And my keys? They get left in the lock. I'm a ditz.



Luckily, since Shark-dog and Dum-Dum always go out for their pre-bedtime potty visit, my keys don't stay up there too long...

What's on the keychain? Well, let's see:
- a remote cardoor opening thingy,
- my car key,
- the key to the shed,
- a heartshaped keychain I got in Cleveland after a glorious weekend with my Honey,
- a keychain my Chicklet picked out for me when she and I took a girls only road trip to Niagara Falls back in 2005,
- a keychain from Alabama that has my Honey pet name for me,
- my house key (duh!) which opens both the front and side door.

That about covers it.

Don't forget to head on over to Robert's to see what his front door looks like and take a few minutes to visit with the other awesome participants in the Show Me Daily Challenge via Mr Linky!

Tomorrow... an object of sentimental value.

Monday, September 8, 2008

Showing you... my kitchen, well, a teeny bit

Today is day two of Robert's Photo challenge. He asked us for pictures of our kitchens... I think maybe he's remodeling and he's looking for ideas. Or, he's working undercover for the Health Department and wants to see the mess.

Well I'll foil that plan!

Here's a little fellow that sits on a shelf (he thinks it's a wall, I don't argue with him). Mom bought it for Chicklet when she was little since she babysat for her a lot and my daughter has a fondness for soft boiled eggs you can stick a piece of toast in.

Ladies and Gentlemen and other bloggers (I don't discriminate... gee, I wouldn't even be welcome on my own blog if I did!)... I give you (figuratively, of course):

Humpty, who unfortunately didn't have a head on his shoulders. I think he felt a bit naked.


He better not fall, I will not take very kindly to the king's horses trotting about in my kitchen.

I had fun playing with this picture. I used Picnik to give it a cartoony (is that a word?) look since he is the stuff from which children's tales are made.

Don't forget to go visit Robert and the other very cool participants in this challenge. You know, this is the great thing about blogging... you get to meet neet new people from all over.

Tomorrow... my front door, again.

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Showing you.... my mailbox, um, deposit thingy

I decided to pay Carletta from Round The Bend a visit again this morning because the time I spent on her porch yesterday was so lovely... and I found day one of a fun photography project that Robert from Thoughts of a Father is hosting. The project begins today - can you believe I'm actually getting in on the ground level of a thingy!?! I'm so cool.

OK... so basically, it works like this: Robert assigns a "topic" for a photo everyday for a week. He wants us to show him our stuff-he-wants-to-see. You don't have to post everyday (Robert is loose with his rules - I like and respect that). But I do think he expects everyone that participates to have fun (this is a rule I can get with).

Today's topic is: my mailbox. Well, not "mine" per say... I mean he certainly doesn't expect everyone to trudge up to my front door and take pictures of my mailbox... that would be odd! And creepy! *shudders*

We don't have a classic mailbox like you find by the side of the road. Ours is a slot in the frontdoor. It's just the right size for letters, postcards, a Victoria's Secret catalogue,... what?

Unfortunately I have yet to figure out how to block bills and junk-mail from making it's way through the slot. Maybe I could train the dogs to "deal" with those... if they could stop napping that is. Ahem!



So here it is... my mailbox/slot/deposit thingy.



And you never know what might be peering at you from the other side...


Do stop in and visit Robert and the other participants via Mr Linky. Tell him Anndi sent you via priority mail.