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"A good listener tries to understand what the other person is saying. In the end he may disagree sharply, but because he disagrees, he wants to know exactly what it is he is disagreeing with."
- Kenneth A. Wells

"I do not want the peace that passeth understanding. I want the understanding which bringeth peace."
- Helen Keller

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

maybe I should explain...


I've been feeling "meh" lately. I went for blood tests this morning. I've been dragging my cute tushie everywhere over the past month or so. I'm starting to think the diagnosis of influenza may have been wrong.

I'm generally a "hyper" kind of person... mind always racing, but not so much lately.

I'm still off work and I frankly don't expect I'll see my office until next year unless the blood tests identify something that a quick course of meds can fix.



I should be worried about the year-end stuff that has to be finalized, but I'm not and that's not like me. I answer emergency calls from work when I'm in cell phone range while I'm on vacation... my work cell has been turned off.

I can't concentrate as my thoughts are strewn every which way, like the wrapping paper on Christmas morn.

I'm tired.

I love my daughter, I have the most wonderful man in my life, but I'm tired.

I enjoy reading (although sometimes I end up reading the same page over again...) - plus I can do this lying down...

I enjoy cooking the foods my mother cooked when I was a child before the holidays (which included a really good "tourtière" or meat pie this weekend)- it's the cleaning up that wipes me out and then I need to lie down.

I enjoy snuggling with Sharkdog (except when she farts - ugh) - also done lying down!

I enjoy watching old movies I haven't seen in ages... like "Anastasia" with Yul Brynner and Ingrid Bergman - the chesterfield is dang comfy to lie down on...

I keep starting my sentences with "I"...

But I'm tired.

I have headaches, body pains... did I mention I'm tired?


I'm looking forward to the time I will get to spend with my daughter in the days leading up to Christmas and the precious few days I will have with the man that holds my heart over New Years. Their hugs make everything better.

So, Dianne, Slyde, Irish Gumbo, Lisa... no need to kick anyone's butt.

Except maybe the asshats that named their kids Adolf Hitler and Aryan Nation... cause they? Are asking for it.

Or maybe the nurse that took my blood and used a surgical tape that seems to go from my armpit to my wrist... man, that's going to sting when I rip it off.

Little moments...

28 comments:

Lisa said...

Okay. I'll put the brass knuckles away for now, but if that nurse doesn't straighten up, you give me the address, k?

Since I don't have to rough anyone up, I'll send you some hugs, and hope you get better easily and soon!

Exhaustion is the worst!

Charles Gramlich said...

wow, sounds like something lingering. Mono? Hope they can figure it out quickly.

goodfather said...

Ack, sorry you're exhausted. That's no fun this time of year. Seriously hoping you feel better soon.

Cameron said...

Sounds like somebody has a case of 'the mondays'. I'd like to find out who said that, and beat them. Lots of weird bugs going around lately.

Irish Gumbo said...

So I have to dial back the ornery? Man, just when I have PLENTY (ahem) of time now to do some freelance attitude adjustment.

Ai yi yi: I feel for you, dearie. And you were just makin' the GBS you mentioned! Never mind that right now, get some rest and don't drool on the keyboard too much. Check out the 'Pure Energy' video over at GoodFather's!

And in case you haven't seen it, another 'moments' vid for you:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zwFS69nA-1w

Sorry, I am not savvy enough yet to embed direstly to a post!

Errant said...

hope everything will be ok with you .. just don't get over worried about this ..

btw, the pics of napping r so cool

Desert Songbird said...

You know the problem with "indeterminate" illness is this: we're feeling so crummy, so we don't get enough sleep. Because we can't sleep, we don't have the energy to fight the malady. If we could just either treat the damn illness or get a sleep aid, we could break the cycle and maybe make some improvement.

Am I right?

Heinous said...

I hope everything turns out well. I'll head off in search of your mojo.

That nurse is just trying to perk you up. You eyes will open that much wider when you pull the tape off.

Gary Rith Pottery Blog said...

oh sweetie, here's hoping you get better and have a nice holiday

Cat said...

So...I'm guessing that you won't approve of my child's name selection, Bigot Homo? Maybe I'll go back to Banana, as originally planned.

Hope you feel better soon, maybe those tests will give you some answers. Or maybe you're just done with 2008. I definitely am.

Bud Weiser, WTIT said...

I would guess NOT knowing is the worst part. I hope you feel very better really soon. And get some help on clean up duty! l)

~Virginia~ said...

that sucks. hope you get to feel better or get to the root of the problem. guessing is tiring in and of itself.

hope you feel better so that you can enjoy the holidays with your wonderful family. happy new year!

Elle Charlie said...

Is it just me or does that guy look a lot like a young Bob Saget?

Kay said...

I am sending you all sorts of happy thoughts! I hope you feel back to normal soon!

Big Hugs!!!!

Travis said...

Hopefully you'll get some answers with the bloodwork. If you have to loose some skin with when that tape comes off, it better be worth it.

In the meantime I say get plenty of rest, eat lots of CAKE, and squeeze the woobie.

Marvel Goose said...

Sounds like how I felt when I came down with Diabetes. The easy way to test this hypothesis would be to eat half a chocolate cake. If you get real thirsty, pass out, and wake up in the hospital then there is a good chance you are either a diabetic or allergic to chocolate.

At least you'll know ,-)

Fortune Cookies said...

this has been going on for way too long, I demand the germies leave you alone PRONTO!
seriously, dear, do take care and feel better soon! Maybe you should be tested for mono? And anemia, some types of anemia can make you feel real funky like this...but I'm sure you already know that.

Kate said...

I went through that last year
and it was my thyroid. It was a struggle just to get out of bed each day.

I hope they can find what's wrong and get you the help you need.

I know how much it can suck not to be yourself.

buffalodick said...

I'm no doctor, but I assume they've run some pretty extensive blood work? Hope they get it figured out and fixed soon!

MilesPerHour said...

First time reader of your blog. Interesting read about a woman's cute tired tushie. J/K I did read through your other posts and enjoyed your style and sense of humor.

Lisa said...

knock knock

Katman said...

Usually you'd put that down to January Syndrome the long hangover from Christmas....

.....since it's only December, either you've set the date wrong wih your internal calender or you need a trip back to the ol' doctors!....

...either that or a glass of wine!

Take care & get well soon.

The k4t

Brian o vretanos said...

I hope they work out what it is quickly.

Akelamalu said...

Sounds something more than flu to me. You're still on my Reiki list, hope you get a proper diagnosis and some meds to make you feel better soon. xx

Cooper said...

(lighting insense...chanting healing chakras)
Get the doctor on the blower and tell him(her?) to get it together already...in the meantime...nap away...

Clay Lowe said...

my prayers go out to you.

Cx

ciara said...

how long has this 'tiredness' been going on? are they testing for thyroid disease? your symptoms were what i first had, and sometimes still have, from it. but then these symptoms can be a lot of things. i hope they figure it out soon. i'll be thinking about you.

Dana said...

Huggies...